[ Anger Seems To Be Directly Part Of My Life ]
[ Be It @ Me ]
[ Or From Me ]
[ Affecting My Son Or My Wife ]
[ Names Can Be Called Or Felt ]
[ It Can Feel Like ]
[ The Tightening Of A Belt ]
[ Either Way, It Hurts ]
[ Easy To Feel & Give ]
[ As If It Is Pulling Off My Shirt ]
[ Anger Can Tear Couples & Families Apart ]
[ Some Angry Comments ]
[ Are Meant To Pierce The Heart ]
[ Or Are They Meant? ]
[ To Stay In The Head ]
[ Instead? ]
[ Either Reason Or Way ]
[ Piercing Words ]
[ Find A Way To Stay ]
[ & Be Heard ]
[ Ping Ponging Back & Forth ]
[ Heading South ]
[ Then Heading North ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(1149)▪︎[ Set Adrift … 12•27•2020 ]
[ You Were Once Again ]
[ In A Sailboat Set Adrift ]
[ With No Wind ]
[ Floating Aimlessly In No Particular Direction ]
[ Or No Plan ]
[ Finding That You Need To Make Several Corrections ]
[ If You Want To Be An Upstanding Man ]
[ Who Should You Go To For Advice? ]
[ Having A Supportive Father ]
[ Would Have Been Nice ]
[ But While He Was Alive, He Never Bothered ]
[ Maybe He Thought That You Were A Troubled Soul ]
[ But You Always Thought ]
[ That He Did A Horrible Job Faking Through His Years Playing
The Father Role ]
[ You Learned More From The Father Of A Family Down
The Street On The Corner ]
[ He Taught You About Sports, Law & Order ]
[ But That Was Then ]
[ Being On Your Own Now ]
[ This Is How It’s Been ]
[ You Have To Figure Out The ( HOW? ) ]
[ Now You Feel That Your Best Friend Can See ]
[ How You Can Be ]
[ The Best Of Me ]
[ She Set You On The Path On How To Get The Best &
Be The Best Man In This House ]
[ & Be The Strong Father For Your Son ]
[ & Be The Strong Husband For Your Spouse ]
[ But This Has Been A Long Time Coming ]
[ I Just Never Listened To The Right Drumming ]
~ The End ~
[ Mahalo ]
[ A hui hou aku ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(1154)▪︎[ Listen Closely, Please … 12•30•2020 ]
[ Things Are The Same, But It’s Just A Different Day ]
[ Words Are Politely Said ]
[ But You Treat Me The Exact Same Way ]
[ Sometimes Worse Than The Day Before ]
[ As Each Day Goes By ]
[ It Seems Like You Hate Me Even More ]
[ Where Do You Get This Hate From? ]
[ Then When Others Ask Me ( HOW COME … ) ]
[ ( YOU FEEL & ACT SO NUMB? ) ]
[ I Feel That Way As A Self-Protective Attitude ]
[ It Is Not To Be Rude ]
[ It Is Just A Protective Change In My Mood ]
[ To Protect My Psyche & My Hurt Heart ]
[ I Have Gotten So Tired ]
[ With The Comments From You That Seem To Be Your Attempts
To Tear This Family Apart ]
[ Do I Have Some Blame In This? ]
[ I’d Say ( YES ) ]
[ Fixing This, Makes It Be One Of The Top Priorities On The Top Of
My List ]
[ My Way Of Engaging You, Is To Not Engage You @ All ]
[ Because, Our Past Arguments ]
[ Used To Drive Me Up The Wall ]
[ I Just Choose, Not To Do That Anymore ]
[ That Is One Of The Many Reasons ]
[ That You Are Being Shown The Front Door ]
[ Kicking You Out, Or Pushing You Out, You Can Call It Whatever
You Want ]
[ I Am Not Using This Story As A Final Taunt ]
[ This Is One Thing That I Am Extremely Tired Of ]
[ This Is Not Something That I Am Doing ]
[ Because There Is Now, A Lack Of Love ]
[ I Would Kind Of Look @ It As, It’s Because I Care ]
[ I Really Want To See ]
[ That We Have Any Kind Of Relationship To Salvage There ]
[ Or There Will Be ]
[ Anything Left To Share ]
[ Does Any Of This Make You Tense? ]
[ I Just Don’t Want You To Straddle The Fence ]
[ As If This Does, Or Does Not Make Sense ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(1148)▪︎[ No Art … 12•26•2020 ]
[ You Have Found That You Are Not Very Creative ]
[ Even Though Your Imagination ]
[ Is Very Active ]
[ Relative As In You Are Not Into Art ]
[ Maybe Because ]
[ You Like Your Paintings Alacarte ]
[ You ARE Sure ]
[ That You Don’t Have Any Hidden Meanings ]
[ In Any Picture ]
[ You Don’t Like To Wait ]
[ To See An Assortment Of Paints ]
[ Used To Make A Picture Resembling ]
[ What You Just Ate ]
[ You Can Never Find The Meanings Of Hundred’s Of Dots ]
[ Because They Just Look Like A Bunch Of Spots ]
[ Spots That Do Not Make Any Kind ]
[ Of Design, In Your Mind ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(1147)▪︎[ A Useless Effort … 12•26•2020 ]
[ Validation Is Almost An Impossible Thing To
Seek ]
[ You Think That Most Of The Time You Come To Have
Some Regrets After You Speak ]
[ No One Acknowledges What You Say ]
[ All Through The Night ]
[ & All Throughout The Day ]
[ You Do Not Understand Why You Are So Ignored ]
[ When You Say Something ]
[ Do You Make Others That Bored? ]
[ It Is Always Other People’s Choice ]
[ That They Won’t Respond To Your Voice ]
[ But Then Frustration Ping Pongs Around In Your Head ]
[ When She Says Your Words Back, Verbatim, What You Just Said ]
[ You Wish That She Had Never Heard ]
[ A Single Word ]
[ Then Others Could Use ]
[ That Excuse ]
[ So You Guess You Will Sit There & Smile ]
[ & Continue To Take The Abuse ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(1141)▪︎[ Your Voice … 12•25•2020 ]
[ There Are Times, When My Choice ]
[ Is To Use My Voice ]
[ But When I Do ]
[ I Don’t Say Things, Just To Make Noise ]
[ I Say Things, From My Heart ]
[ But If You Are Not Very Receptive ]
[ Then I Should Not Even Start ]
[ I Would Not Be Very Receptive ]
[ If All You Chose To Do, Is Rip Me Apart ]
[ Sometimes, When I See The Fire In Your Eyes ]
[ I Wonder If That Look Is For Me ]
[ Or For Some Other Guys ]
[ Because Sometimes I Can’t See ]
[ Through All Of The Lies ]
[ Of Course Those Are The Ones, That I Do Not Know About ]
[ Those Are From The Times, When You Go Out ]
[ Why Is It Not The Same Anymore? ]
[ Why Are You Constantly Closing The Door ]
[ Because Now It Seems ]
[ That You Don’t Know, What You Are Looking For ]
[ Leaving Me @ Home Thinking ]
[ About Drinking ]
[ So Much, I Would Have Trouble Breathing ]
[ That Would Be So Counter-Productive To My Goals In Life ]
[ It Would Be Like Turning Out The Light ]
[ That Connects Our Souls To Each Other ]
[ The Connection That We Have Had ]
[ Before The Times Got Tougher ]
[ & You Were Always Mad ]
[ Now It Seems Like I Am Not The One That Makes You Smile ]
[ The Only Times That You Do ]
[ Is When You Come Home After Being Gone For Awhile ]
[ That Means That Something Is Very Wrong ]
[ If You Only Smile, After You Come Home After Being Gone ]
[ We Need To Get To The Bottom Of This ]
[ Before All Of This, Causes Us To Split ]
[ Because If You Are Knowing ]
[ Where This Is Going ]
[ I Will Just Cut Bait & Walk ]
[ Instead Of Wasting My Time ]
[ Because When It Comes To This Subject ]
[ You Refuse To Talk ]
[ & Then, This Shows Zero Respect ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(1143)▪︎[ Lost In Translation … 12•26•2020 ]
[ I Am Neglectful ]
[ I Am Forgetful ]
[ I Don’t Think That I Am Disrespectful ]
[ I Just Try Not To Be Full ]
[ Of Anything ]
[ Because I Am Neither The Queen ]
[ Or King ]
[ & I Don’t Try To Be Mean ]
[ About Anyything ]
[ Everything Is Alot ]
[ When Put On The Spot ]
[ Because I Must Be Thankful ]
[ Of What I’ve Got ]
[ Because That Will Lead To ]
[ More Helpful Thoughts ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(1111)▪︎[ What Is Hope? … 12•13•2020 ]
[ What Does It Mean When Someone Exclaims That They
Have Hope? ]
[ Could It Be Squashed When Another Person Says ( NOPE ) ? ]
[ Can Someone Go Through Their Whole Life Without Any? ]
[ That Would Be Uncanny ]
[ What Is The Difference Between The Words ( HOPE ) & ( FAITH ) ]
[ Can You Ever Get Them Straight? ]
[ Faith Can Be When You Believe In Something Or Someone Every
Day ]
[ Hope Can Be Having Faith In Some Imaginary Way ]
[ The Two Words Can Be Intertwined ]
[ Both Are Kept In The Depths Of The Mind ]
[ Neither Can Be Based On A Command ]
[ Neither One Can Be Physically Held Or Touched By Your Hand ]
[ Can This Be Something You Could Teach? ]
[ Not Preach ]
[ But You Would Still Have To Define Each ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(1115)▪︎[ 0 2 60 … 12•15•2020 ]
[ As The Frustrations Set In, It Seems ]
[ Like All I Want To Do Is Let Out A Scream ]
[ Because This Is By Far, Not Part Of My Dreams ]
[ More To The Point ]
[ It Is A Nightmare ]
[ That Gets Me All Out Of Joint ]
[ Why Do I Let These Minor Things Get To Me ]
[ The Reasons For This ]
[ I Just Cannot See ]
[ Very Clearly ]
[ It Hits Me In The One Spot ]
[ That Makes Me Hot ]
[ 0 To 60 In 1 Second Flat ]
[ When I Get To 70 ]
[ I Feel Like Swinging A Baseball Bat ]
[ @ Anybody Here Or There ]
[ I Want To Hit Solid Mass ]
[ Not Just Air ]
[ That Would Feel So Good ]
[ The Therapeutic Value ]
[ Is Clearly Misunderstood ]
[ The Cathartic Effect Would Send Me Sky ]
[ High ]
[ But When I’d Bottom Out ]
[ It Would Be A Very Low Point ]
[ No Doubt ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
(1121)▪︎[ Falling Asleep To The Sound Of The Rain … 12•17•2020 ]
[ I Love Falling Asleep To The Distinct Sound Of The Rain ]
[ Especially After Having A Day ]
[ When My Whole Body Was Wracked With Pain ]
[ There Was A Serious Competition @ An All Day Get-
Together Between Three Body Parts ]
[ To See Which One One Hurts The Most ]
[ Thankfully It Was Not My Heart ]
[ That Played The Gracious Host ]
[ Since I Just Had Surgery On My Left Foot, I
Would Say That Would Be The Front Runner ]
[ If My Lower Back Put In A Bid To Play ]
[ That Would Just Make The Whole Scenario Even Funnier ]
[ But Pain Is Never Something To Laugh @ ]
[ Just Like Having The Thought Of Eating A ( KIT KAT ) ]
[ Would Instantly Cause You To Become Fat ]
[ The Sound Of The Rain Coming Down Is Soothing Like The
Sound Of The Ocean Waves Breaking ]
[ & The Sight In My Mind ]
[ Is So Breathtaking ]
[ Since I Am Not Actually There ]
[ I Can Just Sit & Wonder ]
[ How It Would Feel When The Cool Breeze Of The Air ]
[ Running Through My Hair ]
[ But I Will Eventually ]
[ See ]
[ The Need ]
[ To Get & Go Back To Reality ]
~ Ka hopena ~
[ Mahalo iā ‘oe ]
[ A hui hou mākou ]
[ Aloha ]
[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]
