(065)▪︎[ I Need To Do Better … 1•18•2021 ]

A ][° 065 °][ I NEED TO DO BETTER … 1•18•2021 ]

[ It Seemed Like Today ]
[ I Sure Had A Whole Lot To Say ]

[ What Felt The Best ]
[ Was The Ability To Get Everything Off Of
     My Chest ]

[ What Went So Well ]
[ Was That I Did Not Sit & Dwell ]  
[ About Somethings ]
[ That Was Trying Its Hardest ]
[ To Send My Whole Day To Hell ]

[ So I Tried Really Hard To Stay Grounded ] 
[ So My Day Rebounded ]

[ & Did Not Sink In Hotter ]
[ Water ]

[ But I Really Need To Work On Insulating Myself Better ]
[ I•N•S•U•L•A•T•I•N•G  B•E•T•T•E•R Right Down To The
     Last Letter! ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(124)▪︎[ Sleep Escapes Me … Again … 2•6•2021 ]

[ Hey Restful, Sleepy Night, Where Art Thou? ]
[ It Is Now ]
[ 0559hrs In The Morning ]
[ So, It Will Help You, How? ] 

[ You Do Not Know ]
[ Where You Were ]
[ About 4 Or 5 Hours Ago ]

[ You Were Searching For What To Do ]
[ @ About 10 Minutes After 2 ]
[ Wherever It Went ]
[ It Never Left Even The Slightest Clue ]

[ You Are No Longer One Of Those Guys ] 
[ That Could Go To Slumber ]
[ By Simply Closing Their Eyes ] 

[ It Is So Tough ]
[ & So Rough ]

[ Dealing With The Ills ]
[ That You Get ]
[ Along With The Chills ]
[ Whenever You Forget ]
[ To Take Your Pills ]

[ You Will Be In So Many Ways ]
[ Ill The Next Two Days ]

[ Your Head Feels So Off & Foggy ]
[ Your Eyes Are Usually Half Closed ]
[ Because Your Brain Feels So Groggy ]

[ You Will Get The Cold Sweats & Shakes ]
[ As You Feel The Many Body Aches ]

[ So You Really Cannot Forget ]
[ About When Your Alarm Was Set ]

[ You See The Need ]
[ To Take Your Pills Immediately ]

[ Everything That You Are Doing Should Stop ]
[ Once Your Alarm Goes Off ]

[ Then Hold Your Spot ]
[ In The Thoughts ]
[ That You’ve Got ]

[ You Always Need To Remember Back & See ]
[ Into The Far Recesses ]
[ Of Your Memory ]

[ That The Next Day You Will Feel Like Hell ]
[ Because You Did Not Feel So Well ]

[ You Need To Make A More Concerted Effort To Always Take
     Them Every Single Night ]
[ Because That’s What’s Right ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(763)▪︎[ Where Can You Play? … 9•9•2021 ]

[ Could You Have A Picnic In An Operating Room? ]
[ Everything Would So Sterile ]
[ You Would Not To Swing @ Flies, Using A Broom ]

[ Could You Do The Bunny Happy Dance On An Airplane
     With People You Did Not Know? ]
[ You Would Start In The Front ]
[ Then Join In, Row By Row ]

[ Could You Use The Fireman’s Ladder Truck For An Amazing
     High Dive Into A Neighbors Pool? ]
[ That Would Look Pretty Cool ]

[ What If You Took Your Grocery List & Shopped
     Alphabetically? ]
[ Could You Get An Apple To Start ]
[ But What Would Be The (Z?) ]

[ Could You Pay For Them Only With Pennies? ]
[ Would You Be Able To Use All Twenties? ]

[ Could You Play The Game Of (TAG) In A Theater, While
     The Movie Was Playing? ]
[ You Guess That Would Make It Hard To Hear What They Are
     Saying ]

[ Could You Be In A Hospital Room & Put On A Concert? ]
[ I Imagine It Would Bother The Neighbors ]
[ Earnie & Bert ]

[ Could You Play A Football Game In The High School Halls? ]
[ All It Would Take To Do It, Would Be A Couple Of Calls ]

[ It Would Be Really Easy To Put On A Dance In The Cafeteria
     After Taking Care Of The Dishes ]
[ If You Took A Random Survey ]
[ Would This Get Many Wishes? ]

[ Is Toilet Papering Someone’s House Be A Rite Of Passage Or
     A Practical Joke? ]
[ Would It Make Things Better If You Left Them (2) 12-Packs
     Of Coke? ]

[ Would It Be My Guess ]
[ That They Would Come Back To Help Clean Up The Mess? ]

[ Could You Put A Merry-go-Round In A Bar? ]
[ If It Was Put In As A Suggestion ]
[ It Would Not Get Far ]
[ & You Wouldn’t Someone To Get Dizzy ]
[ On Their Way To Drive Their Car ]

[ Could You Play Handball ]
[ Against The Wall ]

[ In A Taco Bell ]
[ Or Does It Have Too Much Of An Intoxicating Smell? ]

[ You Have A Hunch ]
[ That You Would Have To Have A Time-Out For A Long Lunch ]

[ Could You Play Jump Rope Goin Down The Up Escalator? ]
[ Could The First One To Do It Be A High School Student
     From Ecuador? ]

[ There All Kinds Of Places & Scenarios To Have Fun ]
[ Maybe When Using Your Imagination, You Won’t Have
     To Pick Just (1) ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(112)▪︎[ Stay Back … 2•2•2021 ]

[ With The 6 Feet Of Distance & The Wearing Of A Mask ]
[ You Have No Idea If The Person Right In Front Of You Is
     Happy Or Sad ]
[ & Nobody Dares To Ask ]

[ We Live In A World Where Distance Is A Must ]
[ We Don’t Go Near A Stranger ]
[ Because There Is A Big Lack Of Trust ]

[ We Don’t Know If They Are A Little Bit Of Being Mentally Off ]
[ Or If They Have The ‘VID ]
[ Because Of A Nagging Cough ]  

[ Even Family Can Be Dangerous ]
[ Just Like Smoking Can Be Cancerous ]

[ It Is The Family That You Are Not Around All Of The Time That
     Are The Unknown ]
[ Those Are The Ones That You Shouldn’t Allow To Come Into
     Your Home ]

[ You Don’t Know Where They Have Been ]
[ With Whom ]
[ About When? ]

[ If They Traveled, Did They Come Home & Lock The Gate ]
[ & Then Take The Time ]
[ To Voluntarily Self-Isolate? ]

[ They Probably Did Not ]
[ When They Were Put On The Spot ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(035)▪︎[ Stop, Before It Even Starts? … 1•11•2021 ]

[ How Can You Be Heard ]
[ Without Being Seen? ]
[ Can You Say Just One Word ] 
[ Without Being Mean? ]

[ You Don’t Want To Be Ignored ]    
[ Or ]
[ Overlooked ]
[ Anymore ]

[ You Are So Done With That ]
[ Sometimes You Feel That You Can’t ]
[ Keep All These Words That You Want To Say ]
[ Under Your Hat ]

[ & You Don’t Think That You Should Have To ]
[ Would You? ]

[ You Think That You Know ]
[ Because You Really Don’t Think So ]

[ You Wouldn’t Stay Quiet With A Closed Lip ]
[ No ]
[ Because, Sometimes You Do Shoot From The Hip ]

[ Without Considering Your Thoughts ]
[ Without The Effort ]
[ Of Connecting The Dots ]

[ Sometimes You Turn Things Into A Puzzle & Into On To Itself ]
[ When Oftentimes ]
[ You Should Have Left Those Thoughts ]
[ In The Garage, On A Shelf ]

[ You Doubt ]
[ That Some Thoughts Don’t Make A Bit Of Sense ]
[ With What You Have Been Talking About ]
[ So Then ]
[ The End Result Makes Everybody Tense ]
[ Making You Want To Shout ]
[ Out ]

[ So Before The Hammer Drops ]
[ We Should Just Stop ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(1310)▪︎[ What Are You Looking For? … 11•11•2019 ]

[ Is It Where You Are? ]
[ Or Who You’re With ]
[ When You’re Sitting In A Bar? ]

[ Is It What You Drink? ]
[ Or What You Turn Down ]
[ That Makes You Think? ]

[ Will You Take A Drink From Him, But Not That One? ]
[ Because He Acts Really Dumb ]
[ & He Looks Like Alot Of Fun? ]

[ How Can You See The Heart Of The Man When You Can’t
     Even See Their Chest? ]
[ How Can You Decipher The Good From The Bad? ]
[ & Then Pick Out What You Think Is The Best? ]

[ Do You Watch For Social Cues? ]
[ Is It Safe Walking Around ]
[ Looking For Clues? ]

[ What If You Miss Them Or Forget? ]
[ Will You Then Be Ready To Get What You Can Get? ]
[ Will Things Remain Set? ]
[ Just Like The Day When You First Met ]

[ But Things Are Not Always As They Seem ]
[ Sometimes It’s So Chaotic ]
[ It Can Make You Scream ]

[ Those Are The Times When You Cinch Up Your Belt ]
[ & Take A Deep Breath ]
[ You’ll Find That You Won’t Melt ]
[ Like Some Of The Rest ]

[ Follow The Good ]
[ & Kick The Bad To The Curb ]
[ When You Accidentally Veer Off Into The Hood ]
[ You Won’t Be So Perturbed ]

[ Just Turn Around & Go Out The Same Way That You Came In ]
[ No Muss ]
[ No Fuss ]
[ Everybody Wins ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(1310)▪︎[ What Are You Looking For? … 11•11•2019 ]

[ Is It Where You Are? ]
[ Or Who You’re With ]
[ When You’re Sitting In A Bar? ]

[ Is It What You Drink? ]
[ Or What You Turn Down ]
[ That Makes You Think? ]

[ Will You Take A Drink From Him, But Not That One? ]
[ Because He Acts Really Dumb ]
[ & He Looks Like Alot Of Fun? ]

[ How Can You See The Heart Of The Man When You Can’t
     Even See Their Chest? ]
[ How Can You Decipher The Good From The Bad? ]
[ & Then Pick Out What You Think Is The Best? ]

[ Do You Watch For Social Cues? ]
[ Is It Safe Walking Around ]
[ Looking For Clues? ]

[ What If You Miss Them Or Forget? ]
[ Will You Then Be Ready To Get What You Can Get? ]
[ Will Things Remain Set? ]
[ Just Like The Day When You First Met ]

[ But Things Are Not Always As They Seem ]
[ Sometimes It’s So Chaotic ]
[ It Can Make You Scream ]

[ Those Are The Times When You Cinch Up Your Belt ]
[ & Take A Deep Breath ]
[ You’ll Find That You Won’t Melt ]
[ Like Some Of The Rest ]

[ Follow The Good ]
[ & Kick The Bad To The Curb ]
[ When You Accidentally Veer Off Into The Hood ]
[ You Won’t Be So Perturbed ]

[ Just Turn Around & Go Out The Same Way That You Came In ]
[ No Muss ]
[ No Fuss ]
[ Everybody Wins ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(1311)▪︎[ Hope May Not Be … 11•12•2019 ]

[ Sometimes Hope Is A Terrible Thing To Give ]
[ When Someone Is So Depressed ]
[ They Don’t Want To Be Forced To Live ]

[ Living Is The Last Thing That Is On Their Mind ]
[ If Only They Had The Power To Rewind ]

[ The Quest For Hope ]
[ Can Be Washed Away As Fast ]
[ As Water Washes Away Soap ]

[ They Could Tell You To (SHUT THE FRONT DOOR) ]
[ Because They Don’t Want To Hear Anymore ]
[ Then What Are You Saying That For ]

[ For Recognition? ]
[ For Validation? ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(875)▪︎[ It Does Not Make Sense … 10•16•2021 ]

[ Grief & Questions Ran Through Your Head ]
[ You Could Not Believe That Your Brother Was Dead ]

[ You Thought, Just Last Week You & Brent Were Talking On The
     Phone ]
[ There Were No Abnormalities Concerning His Health That
     Were Known ]

[ The Dr’s. Did Not Know, Either ]
[ His Daughter Did Not Know, Neither ]

[ It Seemed Like It Was A Horrible Fluke ]
[ His Health Should Had Jinked ]
[ When Instead It Juked ]

[ He Stopped Breathing Because Of The Position He Was In ]
[ His Airway Was Obstructed ]
[ So He Could Not Catch His Wind ]

[ It Sure Took Some Big Balls ]
[ For His Daughter To Make The Calls ]

[ To Her Mom & You ]
[ Nobody Wanted To Be In Her Shoes ]

[ You Didn’t Go Into Denial When You Got Her Call ]
[ But You Did Want To Hit A Wall ]

[ Through Past Experience You Knew Better Than To Do That ]
[ Your Dreams Of The (2) Of You Growing Old Together, Now
     Went Splat! ]

[ Onto The Floor ]
[ So You Cannot Dream That Dream Anymore ]

[ He Really Was Not Taking Care Of His Body As Of Late ]
[ What He Drank ]
[ What He Ate ]
[ Just Was Not All That Great ]

[ Your Brother Always Thought That It Was Best ]
[ To Live His Life With Zest ]
[ Maybe He Thought ]
[ That Kind Of Life Would Put Hair On His Chest ]

[ But It Wouldn’t ]
[ Because It Couldn’t ]

[ Why Didn’t He Take Care Of Himself Better In Those Last Years? ]
[ So Now Your Dreams Are Reduced To Tears ]

[ You Used To Joke About Getting Kicked Out Of Places ]
[ Because You Guys Wouldn’t Stop Putting On Wheelchair
     Races ]


[ You Used To Tease Him, But Not The Mean Kind ]
[ That You Always Beat Him In Your Mind ]

[ You Thought That You Will Really Miss Those Calls That
     You (2) Had ]
[ Nothing That Was Said, Was Ever Bad ]
[ Everytime You Had To Hang-Up The Phone ]
[ You Got Sad ]

[ Now Who Is Going To Call You To Make You Laugh & Laugh
     For Over An Hour? ]
[ You Found That Your Brother Had That Innate Power ]

[ Nothing You Said To Each Other Made Sense ]
[ He Sure Had The Knack Of Helping You Unwind When He Called
     To See That Things Were Tense ]

[ The (MOURNING PERIOD) That People Have Always Talked
     About Were Incorrect When It Came To You ]
[ Most Of The Levels Of Grief You Breezed Right Through ]

[ Grief Never Got You All Riled ]
[ Most Of The Time ]
[ Because You Never Went Through A Mountain Of Denial ]
[ That You Couldn’t Climb ]

[ When His Daughter Called To Let You Know That Your Brother
     Had Died ]
[ You Never Argued With Her & Thought That She Had Lied ]

[ You Did Have Times When You Shed Your Share Of Tears ]
[ But You Never Drowned Your Sorrows ]
[ In Shots Of Tequila & Beers ]

[ Since He Died In February ]
[ A Trip To Las Vegas In March ]
[ Was Not Necessary ]

[ You Struggle To Make Sense Of The Senseless ]
[ Because How Did He Get Into This Mess? ]

[ Now That He Is Gone ]
[ Everyone Has Had To Move On ]

[ Your Brother May Not Have Lived The Cleanest Life ]
[ But You Are So Glad That He Separated From His Horrible,
     Greedy & Mean Wife ]

[ You Miss Your Brother @ Times ]
[ That Is Why You Had To Write This Rhyme ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(717)▪︎[ Not A Fun Life … 8•26•2021 ]

[ Can You Go Through Life Liking People, But Not Trusting
     Anybody @ All? ]
[ It Is Like You Will Take Their Text ]
[ But You Won’t Take Their Call? ]

[ Some People Carry Around A Closed Mind ]
[ Then Are Definitely Not The Trusting Kind ]

[ Most People Want Results ]
[ But Most People Shout Insults ]

[ They Won’t Trust A Single Soul ]
[ They Don’t Put Butter On Their Dinner Roll ]

[ They Feel That They Are Honest To A Fault ]
[ They Don’t Trust The Government Or Banks ]
[ So They Hide It In Their House In A Vault ]

[ Or They Profess ]
[ There Is No Safer Place Than Under Their Mattress ]

[ Do They Trust Family Members? ]
[ Most, No ]
[ Because He Remembers ]

[ Incidents When Someone’s Word Was Not His Word ]
[ Not The First Time Or The Third ]

[ Someone’s Word Is Not What It Used To Be ]
[ If You Don’t Believe That ]
[ You Should Sit Back & See ]

[ Trusting No One, Could Make Your World Extremely Small ]
[ When You Become An Introvert ]
[ Will You Get Tired Of Staring @ The Same Four Walls? ]

[ You Can’t Get Through Life Not Trusting Anyone ]
[ That Kind Of Life, Does Not Sound Fun ]

[ Do They Think That They Would? ]
[ Than They Should ]
[ If They Could ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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