(998)▪︎[ Thoughts … 11•30•2020 ]

[ My Thoughts Continue To Swirl ]
[ Some Just Hang Like A Gerry Curl ]

[ Old Fashioned & Out Of Date ]
[ Some Just Sit Still & Gain Some Weight ]

[ Some Are Bright ]
[ & Used That Day ]
[ Some Sound Just Right ]
[ & Are Used Right Away ]

[ But Day In & Day Out ]
[ Am I Still Writing Good Enough Stories ]
[ To Shout ]
[ About? ]

[ What I Write It’s The Only Draft ]
[ I’ve Pushed Away From The Lonely Island ]
[ & Sent Adrift On My One Man Raft ]

[ My Thoughts Are Like The Current & Could Take Me Any
Which Way ]
[ Will It Take Me A Week? ]
[ Or Will I Be Done On The Very First Day? ]

[ I Wish I Had The Great Skill & Power ]
[ To Be Able To Write A Really Good Story ]
[ In Under An Hour ]

[ Practice Makes Perfect Is One Thing That People Have
Said To Me ]
[ Hmmm … Could That Be? ]
[ Whenever I Start A Story I Will Have To See ]

[ (PLEASE BE PATIENT) Is What I Say To Everyone ]
[ Because When It Stops Being Fun ]
[ I Tend To Run ]
[ While Saying ( I AM DONE! ) ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ] [🤙]

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(967)▪︎[ It Is All A … ? … 11•19•2020 ]

[ Around Every Corner I Hit A Brick Wall ]
[ Sometimes I Don’t Even Have The Energy
To Take A Call ]

[ A Call From Whom Is The Big Mystery ]
[ It Will Be A Total Guess ]
[ If You Look @ My History ]

[ Everybody Says (I’ll NEVER LEAVE) But They Do ]
[ Now My Best Friend Might Be Leaving Too ]

[ I Know That I Should Have Expected It From
The Start ]
[ & Now We Will Be Apart ]

[ She Wants To Move Back, So She Should ]
[ With Nothing To Tie Her To Oregon, She Could ]
[ If I Wish She Wouldn’t ]
[ She Still Would ]

[ I Don’t Want Her Heart Break When She Has To Come
Back To This State ]
[ Maybe When She Moves Back To Texas ]
[ She Will Find Someone Great ]

[ Texas Has The Type Of Men That She Has Always
Been Looking For ]
[ Afterall, She Is A Texas Girl, Right Down To Her Core ]

[ My Heart Is Breaking & My Head Hurts ]
[ My Thoughts Feel Like They Are Being Dragged
Through The Dirt ]

[ I Talk, But Nobody Hears ]
[ Then I Squint My Eyes ]
[ As My Glare Throws Spears ]

[ Does Anyone EVER Hear Me? ]
[ Is The Sound Of My Voice ]
[ Like The Hum Of A Bumble Bee ]

[ A Sound That Annoys? ]
[ A Sound To Avoid? ]

[ It Sure Seems Like That! ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ]

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(005)▪︎[ The Yin & The Yang … 1•2•2022 ]

[ Learn. Fail. Learn. Fail. Learn More ] 
[ Be More Flexible Than A Board ] 

[ The (LEARN/FAIL) Combination Should Happen Throughout
     Your Life ]
[ With The Exception Of Picking A Husband Or Wife ]

[ You Don’t Want To Have A Spinning Door When It Would Come
     To Picking A Spouse ]
[ Then Having A Good Cat To Chase Down That Lone Mouse ]

[ All Through Life You Should Be Learning ]   
[ The Desire Should Always Be Burning ] 

[ You Have Never Met The Guy ]
[ That Is As Good As It Gets ]
[ On The First Try ]

[ But You Have To Make It Known ]
[ It Is Not Easy To Write A Poem ]

[ It Takes Quite A Long Time ]
[ To Write A Story That Will Rhyme ]

[ Even Having A Family There Are Times Of (LEARN/FAIL) ]
[ But It Might Be Too Late If Your Child Is Headed To Jail ]

[ But Jail/Prison Has Their Own Set Of Rules ]
[ Those People Never Used All Of Their Tools ]

[ They Should Have Learned While Growing Up ]
[ Some People Never Filled Up Their Learning Cup ]

[ Learning & Failing Is All About Growing ]
[ But You Should Never Think That You Are All-Knowing ]

[ They Say That To Be Tough Is To Fragile ]
[ To Be Tender Is To Be Truly Fierce ]
[ With Most Things In Life, Learning Is Gradual ]

[ Would That Be The Yin & The Yang Of The Universe? ]
[ Either Do Or Succumb To This Way ]
[ Or Things Could Get Alot Worse? ]

[ Fragile, Is The Opposite Of Tough ]
[ The Opposite Of Smooth, Is Rough ]

[ You Must Know (1), To Know The Other ]
[ Sometimes You Have To Go Through The Discipline Of The
     Father ]
[ To Truly Appreciate The Comfort Given To You By The Mother ]

[ Fail/Learn, Fail/Learn ]
[ Sometimes The Whole Lesson Is A Serious Burn ]
[ Or Gives You Something To Yearn ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ] [酪]

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(501)▪︎[ Torturing The Caregiver … 8•1•2022 ]

[ The Voice From The Other Room Was Faint To The Ear ]
[ What It Softly Said ]
[ Was Not Clear ]

[ The Voice Was Calm ]
[ As It Cried Out For Its Mom ]

[ I Could Not Tell If It Was A Young Girl Or Boy ]
[ It Almost Sounded Like It Was Coming From A Toy ]

[ I Played The Scenario Again & Again In My Head ]
[ I Wondered If It Came From A Small Animal Instead ]

[ All Of A Sudden It Seemed Like Something Sucked All Of The
     Air Out Of The Room ]
[ The Drop In The Temperature ]
[ Made It Feel Like We Were Sitting In An Old Mummy’s Tomb ]

[ There Seemed To Be A Big Problem ]
[ Because The Floor Boards Would Creak ]
[ When They Did Not Have Anything Walking Across Them ]

[ The Windows Had Frosted Over Days Ago ]
[ It Happened So Slow ]
[ It Normally Would Not Show ]

[ There Are Cracks In Some Windows That I Did Not Notice The
     Other Day ]
[ Nobody Knew Anything ]
[ Nobody Would  Say ]

[ Even Though My Caregiver Would Sweep Everyday, There
     Always Seemed To Be Dust Everywhere ]
[ The Dust Was Swept Up Yesterday ]
[ I Swear ]

[ The Wind Comes In Through The Cracks ]
[ In The Wood ]
[ When It Chills Our Backs ]
[ That Does Not Feel Very Good ]

[ In The Middle Of The Night, I Hear Noises That Cannot Be
     Explained ]
[ I Have Found, From Past Experiences, That It Does No Good To
     Complain ]

[ The Dark Night ]
[ Plays With My Sight ]
[ Because When It Is Completely Black Outside ]
[ I See Flashes Of Light ]

[ Sometimes My Brain Feels Lost ]
[ The T.V. Flickers ]
[ Long After The Power Was Turned Off ]

[ Voices Whisp Around The Room Like They Are Riding On The
     Wind ]
[ Should This Story End ]
[ Like It Begins? ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ,]
[  A hui hou  ,]
[ Aloha  ,]

[  Na  ,]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ,] [酪]

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(053)▪︎[ Glad It’s Over … 1•18•2022 ]

[ Year 2021 Was Not Very Fun ]
[ It Was So Bad ]
[ By The End Of February, You Were Already Done ]

[ That Is When You Tested Positive For The ‘VID ]
[ You Had No Idea What You Did ]

[ The Only Times That You Did Not Wear A Mask Was In
Your House ]
[ Thankfully, It Never Got To Your Spouse ]

[ You Had Thoracic Surgery On (3) Parts Of Your Spine ]
[ & Your Lower Back Is Still Not Aligned ]

[ This Year , You Woke Up To Celebrate Your 25th Anniversary
While On A Hospital Bed ]
[ What A Great Place To Wake Up To Celebrate How Many Years
That You Have Been Wed ]

[ Your Longtime Caregiver Up & Quit ]
[ Because Of A Bunch Of Miscommunication & Misunderstanding
Shit ]

[ This Event Really Took You By Surprise ]
[ But Then You Found Out ]
[ That For Months She Had Been Telling You A Bunch Of Lies ]

[ She Had Her Resumé Out There For Awhile It Seemed ]
[ Because She Said That She Had It Out There With (INDEED) ]

[ So You Had To Finish Off Of The Year Without (1) ]
[ That Sure Hurt A Ton ]

[ The Best Part Of The Ending Year ]
[ You Were Able To Start 2022 With The Person Who Is Most
Near & Dear ]

[ You Were Alone Way Too Much ]
[ There Were Chunks Of Time When You Did Not ]
[ Have The Comfort Of Talking To Anyone About Such -n- Such ]

[ Too Much Alone Time ]
[ But You Were Able To Write Over (1,000) Stories That Rhymed ]

[ It Started With A Whimper ]
[ & Ended With A Bang ]
[ Not A Whisper ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ]

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(058)▪︎[ Hard To Refrain! … 1•19•2022 ]

[ When Someone Judges A Person Considering Suicide, Who
     Has Never Walked The Life Or Death Line ]
[ Has No Place To Whine ]

[ The Suicidal Person Does Not Think That It Is The Most
     Selfish Act ]
[ It Is The Other Way Around, In Fact ] 

[ He Feels That The Act Will Free Those He Feels He Is Weighing
     Down ]
[ The Issue Is Neither Black Or White ]
[ It Is More Like Brown ]

[ He Feels He Is A Financial Burden Or Drain ]
[ His Thoughts Are Going As Fast As A Runaway Train ]

[ There Are No Frequent Stops ]
[ There Are No Postal Drops ]

[ His Thinking Has Become Completely Hyper Focused On What
     He Feels That He Must Do ]
[ He Tries Not To Give Off Any Social Cue ]
[ Or Leave A Clue ]

[ Nothing Until He Would Be Found ]
[ Either Swinging From A Rope ]
[ Or Laying On The Ground ]

[ In His Mind It Is A (FREEING ACT) Times Two ]
[ It Was Never A Selfish Act To Do ]

[ If He Is Not Working, He Might Feel Like Others Think That He
     Is A Bum ]
[ His Guilt Is Something That He Never Could Outrun ]

[ Others Will Have More Money If They Did Not Have His
     Mouth To Feed ]
[ (2) Different Times He Never Got Any Hits On His Resume
     When He Used (INDEED) ]

[ Not A Single Bite On His Resumé After Having It Out There
     For More Than ½ A Year ]
[ When He Got Let Go Because Of The ‘VID19 ]
[ This Was Something He Feared ]

[ He Thought That He Had A Career That He Could Retire From ]
[ Then The ‘VID19 Happened ]
[ So He Does Not Have One ]

[ One Time When He Was Omitted Into A Hospital, He Learned So
     Much More About His Suicidal Triggers From The Others ]
[ Than He Could Have From The Dr’s ]
[ & People’s Mothers ]

[ They Should Have More Groups With Open Discussions Than
     They Had ]
[ & That Was Bad ]

[ So Much About A Suicider’s Brain Is Misunderstood ]
[ That Does Not Do Anybody Any Good ]

[ He Just Wants To Release His Physical/Mental Pain ]
[ That Won’t Go Away ]
[ It Is So Hard To Refrain ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ] [酪]

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(478)▪︎[ Favre Is One Of A Kind … 7•24•2022 】

[ One Day I Met This Young Lady Named Danielle ]
[ I Am Beginning To Know Her Really Well ]

[ She Does Not Let Too Many People In ]
[ Whenever You Banter Back & Forth ]
[ She Will Never Let You Win ]

[ She Is As Competitive A Person That I Have Had The Pleasure
     To Meet ]
[ She Cooks Me Wonderful Meals To Eat ]

[ She Has As Cute Of A Laugh As She Does Has A Smile ]
[ I Could Probably See It After Walking A Mile ]

[ She Does Not Have A Single Visible Flaw ]
[ She Has A Great Figure ]
[ While Not Being Very Tall ]

[ She Is Not Short Because She Is The Perfect Height ]
[ Her Caramel Colored Skin Says She Isn’t White ]

[ She Is Of Filipino Descent ]
[ I Guess Her Boyfriend Nick Would Say That She Was Heaven
     Sent ]

[ She Is A Wonderful Caregiver That Looks After All Of My
      Needs ]
[ Her Intelligence Shows When She Reads ]

[ I Cannot Get Any Fact By Her ]
[ She Would Go Home & Do Some Research On Topics That She
     Was Not Sure ]

[ She Humors Me, I Know ]
[ Because She Does Not Complain When I Like To Watch My
     Favorite Show ]

[ Her Demeanor Is Never Over The Top ]
[ She Has Never Done Something So Irritating That I Wanted
     To Yell (STOP!) ]

[ Favre Is Really Easy To Talk To ]
[ One Thing That She Does Do ]

[ Is Keep Her Mouth Shut ]
[ & She Does Not Interrupt ]

[ She Is A Good Cook Who Has Yet To Make Me Sick ]
[ There Are So Many Clients During Her Hours & Shifts ]
[ She Could Take Her Pick ]

[ No Matter The Time She Always Does The Dirty Dishes ]
[ Whenever She Shows Up @ My Front Door ]
[ I Know That The Scheduler Granted One Of My Wishes ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[  Mahalo E Ka hoa  ]
[  A hui hou  ]
[ Aloha  ]

[  Na  ]
[  Lopaka DeVoe  ] [酪]

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(973)▪︎[ How Do You? … 11•21•2020 ]

[ Do You Survive? ]
[ Revive? ]
[ Or Have You Finally Arrived? ]

[ Can You Jot Down All That Makes You Smile ]
[ Or All That caused You To Frown ]
[ For Awhile? ]

[ Can You Talk To A Coach For A Minute Or Two? ]
[ When You Can Talk About Nothing But You? ]

[ If You Lose Too Fast ]
[ Will The Loss Last? ]

[ Do You Know Your Role? ]
[ In Your Quest To Reach Your Goal? ]

[ What Do You Want To Accomplish For The Rest
Of The Year? ]
[ Are You Foggy ]
[ Are You Clear? ]
[ Do You Feel Foggy ]
[ When Confronted By A Fear? ]

[ But Do You Feel Trapped? ]
[ When The Topic Is About (THE APP?) ]

[ You Must Be Active ]
[ Or Proactive ]
[ Stay Away From Always Being Reactive ]

[ Is Your Goal Star Worthy? ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ] [🤙]

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(957)▪︎[ Hang In There … 11•15•2020 ]

[ Okay! ]
[ What Can I Write Or Say? ]
[ To Help You Get Through What You Went
Through Last Night ]
[ & What Continues Today? ]

[ Big M, This Is What I’ll Share ]
[ Because I Care ]
[ & To Let You Know ]
[ That Were So Many Times That I’ve Been
There ]

[ We Both Have Walked In Many & Different
Shoes ]
[ So We Both Have Our Different Views ]
[ We Find Our Own Clues ]
[ By Reading The Social Cues ]

[ You May Never Know ]
[ How The Next Day Will Go ]

[ But I Bet ]
[ I Have Never Liked, Worried, Cared About & Respected ]
[ Another Person That I Have Never Met ]
[ … Yet! ]

[ I Have Written So Many Stories About Having You
In My Life ]
[ That The Only People That I Have Written More Of ]
[ Is Maria & My Wife ]

[ Because You Two Are The Kind ]
[ Of People ]
[ That Are So Frequently On My Mind ]

[ From The Very First Time That She Told Me
About The Man Who Caught Her Eye ]
[ & Stole Her Heart ]
[ I Immediately Told Her (OH I’ve GOT TO MEET
THIS GUY!) ]
[ Just Ask Her ]
[ Because That Is NOT A Lie ]

[ I Tell This To Very Few ]
[ But I Will Say This To You ]
[ Because I Need To ]

[ We Are All Not Done With Each Other Here ]
[ Is That Perfectly Clear? ]

[ Now I Know That I’m Not In The Circle Of People
That You Really Care About ]
[ But That Doesn’t Make Me Sit In The Corner & Pout ]

[ I’ll Still Write Stories That Will Encourage ]
[ During This Time Where You Feel Discouraged ]

[ Never Give Up Your Power ]
[ To See What Comes Up Next ]
[ Minute Or Hour ]

[ I Will Never Say Any ( EVERYTHING HAPPENS
FOR A REASON ) Crap ]
[ I Have Never Heard That In A Rap ]

[ This Is All Up To You, Big M ]
[ Keep Your Head Held High ]
[ & Don’t Dip Your Chin ]

[ & I’ll Just Sit Here ]
[ If You Ever Need An Ear ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ] [🤙]

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(930)▪︎[ Be The One … 11•6•2020 ]

[ Every Single Day, Celebrate Life ]
[ Enjoy The Light ]

[ Sleep When It’s Dark ]
[ Keep Your Drive Going ]
[ Don’t Let Your Mind Stay In Park ]

[ You Can Yield When You Need To ]
[ But Then Go Back To Do What You ]
[ Want & Need To Do ]

[ Always Move Onward ]
[ Always Upward ]
[ Going Forward ]

[ Should Be Your Only Direction ]
[ Thank Those That Are Kind Enough ]
[ To Help You Make The Appropriate Corrections ]
[ That Seems Tough ]

[ Learn Who Is A Good Influence In Your Life & Who Is Not ]
[ Then Hug, Cherish, Respect, Honor & Love ]
[ Those Few That You’ve Got ]

[ Don’t Spend Another Minute Of Your Time For Those
That You Kicked To The Curb ]
[ Spend Time With The Positive Ones Who Deserve The Time
& Effort ]
[ That Would Help You Make A Better Verb ]

[ Sleep & Rest As Hard As You Play ]
[ Think About The Positive Things That Happened During
The Day ]
[ Then Try To Figure Out A Way ]
[ To Keep The Negative Thoughts @ Bey ]

[ Build On What Has Been Good ]
[ When Common Sense Says You Should ]
[ & Build It In Stone ]
[ Not Wood ]

[ Build A Base That Is Rock Solid Not Hollow ]
[ Be A Voice Of Reason ]
[ Be The Type Of Person That Others Want To Emulate
& Follow ]

[ Don’t Be The Follower ]
[ Take The Lead ]
[ & Be The Caller ]

[ Look Low Then Look High ]
[ Be That Type Of Girl Or Guy ]

[ That People Want To Look Up To ]
[ Be One Of The Very Few ]
[ That Gives Their Word ]
[ & Then Comes Through ]

~ Ka hopena ~

[ Mahalo E Ka hoa ]
[ A hui hou ]
[ Aloha ]

[ Na ]
[ Lopaka DeVoe ] [🤙]

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